my life

My life is not the greatest..but its my life. Sometimes I just wish that I could start all over again, brand new, knowing about all the mistakes that I have made so I will not make the same ones again. I work so damn much and I hate it. But then again, I love to work otherwise I get really bored. Were talking seriously bored to the point of I just want to go to sleep. I just wish that I would've gone to college and gotten a real job, one that pays really good so then I wouldn't have to be stuck doing two hotel jobs that I really dont like all that much. That is the thing that I really want to change in my life the most, is to go to college. I just wish it wouldnt be so hard for me, I have so many bills each month. My car payment alone is equal to one of my paychecks. I just want to work in an office, or a magazine place or something where I can wear what I want and do what I want. I just wish something would become availbile like that for me, I wish it so much.